@MattAbbottPoet

@MattAbbottPoet
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18 Apr 2008

Did It All Go To Plan?


I saw your picture yesterday
Is that a true reflection?
I’ve seen you slowly grow, and all the things that you tried to be
It seems so long since you portrayed
That image of perfection
Well at least that’s how they painted you for everyone to see
It looked like what you wanted and it felt like it was right
It felt like you were right at home as you slipped out of sight
Does it have to be like this?
Do it really have to be like this?

Well did it all go to plan?
Did it all go to plan?

I found a picture yesterday
It must be ten years old
Completely unaware of what was lying just around the bend
Rich in life, and words to say
You started to unfold
And you unravelled as you travelled, and it never seemed to end
It looked like what you wanted and it felt like it was right
It felt like you were right at home as you slipped out of sight
Does it have to be like this?
Do it really have to be like this?

Well did it all go to plan?
Did it all go to plan?

And I miss times when you would laugh, that twinkle in your eye would brighten-up my day
Yeah I miss the times when you would laugh, I wish that things were different every single day
And I miss times when you would laugh, that twinkle in your eye would brighten-up my day
Yeah I miss the times when you would laugh, I wish that things were different every single day

Maybe You Are After All?


And as a drop in your ocean I’m drowned by the notion
That I simply cease to exist
And I doubt that you’ll respond but I’ve grown rather fond
And so with my pen I persist
I don’t know where to start, from the head or the heart?
Or maybe from further below?
I’m ignoring the pain, this is written in vain
I’m smitten but you’ll, but you’ll never know, oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh
I’m smitten but you’ll never know
Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh


Yeah, I’m smitten but you’ll never know
And does admitting it soften the blow
Yeah, I’m smitten but you’ll never know
But fuck it, I’ll give it a go, oh-oh


And you may well protest at the hairs on my chest
The texture that you feel when we kiss
You’re taking second best, to stay in the nest
Not expecting that you’d fall for this
Oh, and there’s no-one to choose, there’s nothing to lose
At least you’d have something to show
So just swallow your pain, this is written in vain
You’re smitten but you’ll, but you’ll never know, oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh
You’re smitten but you’ll never know
Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh


Yeah, I’m smitten but you’ll never know
And does admitting it soften the blow
Yeah, I’m smitten but you’ll never know
But fuck it, I’ll give it a go, oh-oh

17 Feb 2008

Failing To See The Attraction



Now you walk through the door and you brighten-up the place
And I'm trying to ignore him with that grimace on my face
And with his look of satisfaction and his arm around your waist
And every single action that I'm desperate to replace
Now I’m not trying to tell ya that I’m special or sublime
But every time I see him it sends shudders down my spine

And well it might just be a feeling and I guess I'll never know
Tonight it hits the ceiling and I might just let it show

'cause you're a very special kinda person
And you've got me with every single one of your moves
And it might just make this problem worsen
But I guess I've got something to prove, something to prove
And I'm failing to see the attraction
Yeah I'm failing to see the attraction

I see you gravitate towards, is my mind just playing tricks?
You come up and ask a simple question and I hit you back with six
And we get lost in conversation, then he comes and wins you back
With understated irritation, I feel an instinct to attack
‘cause I can see that he is worthless and he’s only in it for the sex
And when you look beneath the surface there’s nothing more than you’d expect

He just likes to chase 'em now and then, a with a bit of luck
If I never see his face again, it wouldn’t be so tough

'cause you're a very special kinda person
And you've got me with every single one of your moves
And it might just make this problem worsen
But I guess I've got something to prove, something to prove
And I'm failing, to see the attraction
Yeah I'm failing, to see the attraction
And I'm failing, to see the attraction
Yeah I'm failing, to see the attraction

And I'm failing, to see the attraction


21 Jan 2008

Voluntary Confinement


As Sunday morning smells of toast are drifting through the nation
My senses have diminished and my body's drained of sleep
When littered pathways are my host and I'm weak with desperation
Now everything has finished and I am left
All alone

And twenty-seven miles for a night-out on the tiles
The benefit of hindsight is a wonderful perspective
And walking's not my style, so I stumble for a while
And I'm squinting in the light amidst my alcoholic haze

With God's help I will over-come this terrible affliction
And I'd shout for what it's worth, but there's no-one else around
And I'm certain that I'll conquer and escape from this addiction
But at this moment in time, I'm the only man on earth
I'm the only man on earth

As people eat their Sunday roast, I stumble-in through the back door
My senses have diminished and my body's craving sleep
When littered pathways are no more and sleep is just around the corner
Now everything has finished and I am left
All alone

Twenty-seven miles for a night-out on the tiles
The benefit of hindsight is a wonderful perspective, I'm reflective
And talking's not my style, so I mumble for a while
And days drift into night amidst my alcoholic haze

With God's help I will over-come this terrible affliction
And I'd shout for what it's worth, but there's no-one else around
And I'm certain that I'll conquer and escape from this addiction
But at this moment in time, I'm the only man on earth
I'm the only man on earth

17 Jan 2008

You Probably Don't Even Realise When You Do The Things I Love The Most



And I haven't seen you for a while
Since just before you went away
But then I often see you smile
As my mind begins to stray
And I haven't really dreamt of you
Since you fell right out of sight
But then again, you've kept me wide awake
Through every single night

And you're probably unaware of just how much really I care
But then again I never told you, although I meant to
Because I do...

And you probably don't even realise when you do the things I love the most
Yeah, you probably don't even realise when you do the things I love the most

Yeah, it's the simple things I miss
And even as you’re hearing this
I bet you wonder what I meant by that
As I compile a second list
Of such gentle insignificance, subconsciously sublime
And my heart is growing fonder
It's getting longer every time

And you're probably unaware of just how much really I care
But then again I never told you, although I meant to
Because I do...

And you probably don't even realise when you do the things I love the most
Yeah, you probably don't even realise when you do the things I love the most
And you probably don't even realise when you do the things I love the most
Yeah, you probably don't even realise when you do the things I love the most

And I love the way you hold my hand and softly stroke my finger
The way you laugh beneath your breath when I call myself a singer
The way you always listen when I've got something to say
And I often see a smile
As your mind begins to stray...