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18 Aug 2009

Lowlife


When there’s nothing left for death to take away
You strain yourself to struggle through the day
You have the gift of isolation
Starved from sight or conversation
You’re paralysed, you’ve never been so scared
In the depths of your mind, where mercy is spared
You’re searching for a reason to be sober
Never been dry since that week in October
And you can’t find the comfort in conform
You just shudder, shelter from the norm
It’s all you know, oh

I’m so sick of this, I’m so tired of this
I’m so sick of this lowlife, fuck right off with the same old bullshit
I’m so sick of this, I’m so tired of this
I’m so sick of this goddamn lowlife that I inhabit

When the only words she’s giving you are cold
The memories you cling to are desperately old
Reluctantly hiding in resistance
Find yourself questioning your existence
And all you want is something more
But you can’t unlock your bedroom door
And she’d sooner sleep alone than stay
When there’s nothing left for death to take away
Destruction has found its full throttle
You can’t see past the bottom of the bottle
It’s all you know, oh

I’m so sick of this, I’m so tired of this
I’m so sick of this lowlife, fuck right off with the same old bullshit
I’m so sick of this, I’m so tired of this
I’m so sick of this goddamn lowlife that I inhabit

When there’s nothing left for death to take away
You strain yourself to drag from day to day
Eyes wide open, arms aloft
You scream at the world to fuck right off
When you can’t unlock your bedroom door
And there’s nothing left worth fighting for
You’ll find that bottle, find that vein
The deeper you get, the sweeter the pain

And you’re far too scared the find the truth
You miss the blanket of your youth
When you wake in the morning, you can’t bear to face
The reflection before you, that fucking disgrace
You step outside but no-one’s there
You hide behind an icy stare
When you slip to the shadows and sink to the street
Hands in your pockets, eyes on your feet
And you’ve never got money, it’s pissed up the wall
You run from your family, too scared to call
When your girlfriend ignores you, she doesn’t exist
You carry a warning, constantly pissed
And there’s nothing left, it drags you further
There’s nothing left, it drags you further
There’s nothing left, it drags you further
There’s nothing left to fade away
And there’s no existence, you can’t resist
No existence, you can’t resist
There’s no existence, you can’t resist, oh
There’s no existence, you can’t resist
No existence, you can’t resist
There’s no existence, you can’t resist, oh

15 Aug 2009

Fireworks



That delicate way you take me to that distant place
I never really told you because you never asked
And I never really notice until I’m left to chase
I’ve barely stopped to breathe and the moment’s passed

And that delicate way you break me, design my night and day
Devotion soon devours, anxiety would roam

And then I'm scrutinising sentences, every single word you say
And I’d kick myself for hours on the journey home

Watching fireworks, through the window
Fireworks, as our love grows

Fireworks, through the window
Fireworks, watch our love grow

The only way to love myself is spending time with you
The only way to love myself is spending time with you

The only way to love myself is spending time with you
The only way to love myself is spending time with you

So let’s not ruin this with words, the chat-up lines and charms
'cause nothing else feels quite as safe as lying in your arms

This moment is for keeping, Lose everything we ever knew
And those sighs when you were sleeping, I know you feel the same way too

I'm pining for a second of treasured interaction
A lifetime would be blissful but I'll settle for a fraction

Watching fireworks, through the window
Fireworks, as our love grows

Fireworks, through the window
Fireworks, watch our love grow

The only way to love myself is spending time with you
The only way to love myself is spending time with you

The only way to love myself is spending time with you
The only way to love myself is spending time with you

Watching fireworks, through the window
Fireworks, as our love grows

Fireworks, through the window
Fireworks, watch our love grow

Watching fireworks, through the window

Fireworks, as our love grows
Fireworks, through the window
Fireworks, watch our love grow